In the midst of this all this chaos that is what my life feels to be, I can become full of anxiety, stress, and never able to fully decompress, it is the life I lead. I feel like I didn’t choose this life, but it is the life that I had been dealt, where I’ve gambled so much for mere shillings. What am I left with other than what needs to be dealt with, as each passing moment goes by, whatever it is that I am holding on to, I need to let it go. He takes my burdens, all that I have received from friends, families, and even my own. This is only one of an unfathomable number of reasons, where talking to God really helps my situation. This is my decompress time.
When watching TV shows, I get into the fictional characters lives’ and I take on their burdens as well. So, I think this is my only outlet besides, sleep. And in this time of prayer and meditation, I am able to think through my day and maybe even weeks.. since I last talked to You. I’m not ashamed of that, but I also know You have been waiting for me. Let me come to You and let me tell you all the things that weigh heavy on my heart, but also not withholding what delights my heart. Let me not have to count the ways that You have provided insight to decisioning the right choices. I don’t always consult to Your advice, but when I do come forward to You, You provide me space. Clear-minded-ness.
Slow Down Time? Maybe no, but consider this, certainly a peace of mind which therein lies a space that stands still, a place so beautiful where treasured decisions and people in my heart and mind are all trophies on the wall (not like I conquered, but more like a picture frame on the mantle). It’s also a place where every scar, scab, and bleeding open wound stare me down, looking in, I can say that I starred right back, because You’re my Yuen Wo Ping, in Fist of Legend.
Fist of Legend 1994 Fight scene [ HD ]